I had quite a difficult upbringing. I was put into care at 1 year old. I was in care until I left school. I had an abused childhood. I can only remember the bad things as a child. I have had two broken marriages. These things are hard but God is helping me with the separation at this time. I work in a nursing home with old people, which I enjoy.
I have two sons, Ben (14) and Jim (12), who I love very dearly. When Ben was little I almost lost him due to a collapsed lung. I remember praying, begging God to save Ben's life. My prayers were answered and Ben did pull through. I was a bit selfish because I never turned to God then. Perhaps I didn't understand about God enough.
Ben started coming to Oasis Church in September. In December I went with him. Jim and Carly my niece also came along. At Oasis, things are explained in simple ways with various stories and visual aids. We even have puppets, which are great fun (much better than Punch & Judy!) I began to understand about God and his purposes. I realised that Jesus died on the cross for me. Gradually, over a few weeks, I started to follow Jesus.
Towards the end of January, Graeme told the church about a picture he had in his mind. It was of a forest after a big fire. Everything had been burned but there were little green shoots of new growth just appearing. I knew God was speaking to me through this. In the midst of things in my life going wrong, God was there and was beginning something new. There is hope and a future. We are not sure where we will be living in June but I am trusting God, I know He has things sorted.
Not ever having a real dad, God is like a real father to me. He is always there. There is a very close bond between us.
I want to be baptised because I have received so much from God I want to give myself to Him.